My life right now.
For me right now. The days are shortening in an ever faster cascade. Acorns fall on my head when I go outside. It’s getting cold. Crap, it’s that time of year.
One of the blogs I read just posted that her husband had put on his long-johns for the winter. I can’t find the post, I suspect she thought better of it, definitely was TMI. But it reminded me that although I don’t need long-johns in the mild marine climate of Seattle, there is something seasonal that I hadn’t done yet, and that is increase my meds to their winter levels. So now I have done that.
Speaking of life sucking, I’m just grateful that mine doesn’t suck that much. I have a roof over my head, food to eat, (even though I haven’t had the energy to cook lately, it’s that serotonin thing). I have friends, even though many of them are virtual friends. I have a steady (albeit eroding) income. I’m getting new windows. Although that sucks because it means I have a lot of work to do before the 29th.
When one of my virtual friends is battling cancer, and a lot of folks are losing their shirts in the stock market (including my sister, whose income depends on the stock market), I’ll just keep taking my (cheap, generic, effective) anti-depressants, turn on my SAD light, and suck it up.
A chant that we sing at Winter Solstice comes into my mind. I hold it out as hope that this, too, shall pass.
Light is returning,
Even though it is the darkest hour
No one can hold
Back the dawn.
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Silverstar's Magical Adventures (and assorted rants) 
Hey there,
Rob made the comment on his own blog. I used to like autumn, but now it fills me with mild dread. My Rob and I are already counting the days until better weather and light levels. I sometimes wonder whether the temperature/precipitation trade-off actually works for me.
Sally
By: TigereyeSal on October 12, 2008
at 19:33
Sal- I knew I’d seen it somewhere. If I had my druthers, I’d druther live somewhere like San Diego, but I don’t so…
I do know the temperature extremes in flyover country kill my arthritis and fibromyalgia, so I’ll take my meds and turn on my SAD light, and the light will return.
By: silverstar98121 on October 12, 2008
at 20:29
I get very down in winter too which is why I take my holidays then and go somewhere warmer for a while. luckily winter only lasts a couple of months over here but I still hate it…
By: nursemyra on October 13, 2008
at 00:27
my SAD light burnt out…
By: thegnukid on October 13, 2008
at 08:20
Nurse Myra- If I could, I’d be a snowbird and migrate down to south for the winter.
Gnu- how SAD, I’m sorry to hear that
By: silverstar98121 on October 13, 2008
at 10:27
hard to find the fun in the winter… maybe a tennis racket and sitting outside swatting acorns at squirrels? or annoying neighbors? hmmm… then again, maybe not. might take out one of the new windows…
By: daisyfae on October 13, 2008
at 15:35
I couldn’t take summer all year long, but I’m glad that winter here only lasts about 3-4 months and is never too cold. The two winters I spent in Bristol almost killed me! At least in Canada it’s sunny …
By: azahar on October 14, 2008
at 06:35
Winter is okay but it would be better if it didn’t last so long.
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By: Leaves and Serotonin « psych survivor 2.0 on October 16, 2008
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